Feeling Poetic

For many years I have written poems all at different times. When I was sad, I wrote. Happy, I wrote. Loved, I wrote. Now I would like to share some different poems I have written to see what you all think!

My Smudged Smile

 I wear a smudged smile,

Chapped by the winds of constant change,

A forced smile,

That attempts to hide the hurt,

My lips burn,

Longing for a balm,

A soft caress of another's lips,

I smile and my lips bleed,

Stinging with the tears of my mistakes,

My fingers touch them,

Blotting the blood of the past away,

Now they will heal,

Soon that soothing kiss will touch my scarred lips,

A true smile will appear then,

Full,

Coral and flushed,

Hot to touch,

But for now,

I smile...

My smudged smile...

Still Waters

A crystal lake,

Reflecting the perfect spring day,

The breeze blown trees,

The sun warmed stones.

The emerald grass,

A calming sound,

The movement of the breeze.

It hums through the pussy willows,

She stands and listens,

Eyes closed,

Face upturned,

Sun darkening the freckles that color her hear flawless skin,

He watches her,

He wishes he was touching her face,

Running his fingers through her hair,

Feeling her softness,

Breathing in the scent of her,

The warmth of her kiss,

He watches her reflection and wish she was there, by his side,

Instead of in the still waters of his memory.

Now this next poem was NOT written by me, in fact I have no idea who did write it but once you read it you will know why I shared it with you! 

Mood Lifter

Whatever our hands touch -
We leave fingerprints!
On walls, on furniture
On doorknobs, dishes, books.
There's no escape.
As we touch we leave our identity.
Wherever I go today
Help me leave heartprints!
Heartprints of compassion
Of understanding and love.

Heartprints of kindness
And genuine concern.
May my heart touch a lonely neighbor
Or a runaway daughter
Or an anxious mother
Or perhaps an aged grandfather.

Send me out today
To leave heartprints.
And if someone should say,
"I felt your touch,"
May they also sense the love
that is deep within my heart.

-Unknown Author

I read this poem when I am in a bad mood, when I feel out of sorts, when I am having trouble feeling like my world isn't crashing down around me....I hope it helps someone else too!

I hope you all enjoy today's writings and continue to keep reading on as I share more with you another day! 

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1 year, 8 months, and 24 days.

That is how long we have lived here in Washington, that is how long ago we left the world we had known for a new life. It was scary, it was nerve-wracking, it was totally worth it!

In just 12 days my littlest love turns 2! I cannot believe he was only 3 months old when we got out here and now he is almost 2! He has grown so much and is such a happy, wonderful, giggly little boy.

Just like his big brother he has grown to really like Spiderman so we are going to make this birthday themed Spiderman! The funny thing is that Andy's 2nd birthday was the first time he had a Spiderman theme (he had two more after that before switching to Pirates of the Caribbean). We were trying to find some Duplo blocks with a Spiderman theme but we seem to be striking out. So we started looking for some other Spiderman toys that are good for his age. Turns out Mr. Potato Head has a Spiderman version and mini figures sets so we may get him one of those. He is at a fun age toy-wise because he likes blocks, matchbox cars, and action figures and he has an awesome imagination!

Now a little news about my girl! Mckenzee has grown so much in the last few years! She has gone from a cute little fairy princess...into a full princess with her own sense of style, her own attitude (that sometimes gets her little butt in trouble) and her own uniqueness that makes me love her so much!

Spencer clapping for his "Enzee"! 

Last week we got a letter from her school telling us that she was going to be receiving an award! We were so proud but the letter told us not to tell her and that she had no idea she was going to be getting it, just to be at the school this past Friday for a special assembly to see her receive her certificate! So we kept the secret from not only her but also our family (which was super tough) so that when she found out she would be so surprised and able to share the news herself with her family! We even kept up the secret all the way to drop her off at school on that morning. She thought we had left to run our errands only to find us sitting in the auditorium waiting for her to come in! It was a super special day for her as that night we also used a gift certificate we had to take her to Buffalo Wild Wings to have a special dinner and celebrate!

We could not have been prouder to see her up there with the other kids getting her certificate for showing how "Responsible" a student she is! (Now if we can get her to do that a little more often at home) This week coming up we have a conference with her teacher and will be receiving her report card for this term which I am pretty sure will be fantastic since I know she is reading well (above grade level). I know that though there are times it is tough she has been doing really well with her math, and her behavior in class has been very good since she fills up her good girl charts every week with little Xs! She loves school and I hope she continues to love it for many years to come!

So in a nutshell, I think moving out here has really had a positive effect on this family and we are all thriving in some way! The only one missing is our Andrew but we know that that is just a matter of time before he visits again and we have an awesome summer together. Who knows maybe someday he will be out here even more and he will get to spend more time with us!

Thank you all for reading! Stay happy, stay healthy, stay creative!

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Proud Moments

So much has gone helter-skelter this month but among the dark clouds has been some outstanding sunshiny moments! 

At the beginning of the month I fell and injured my leg, and when I went to the doctor I found I have osteoarthritis in my knees and the fall had caused it to flare up. Long story made short, I have to keep it as immobile as possible for 3-6 weeks. Which means no work until I am given the a-ok from my doctor. (This is not good for our income but we will "Make it Work"! 

During the time of my injury the house came down with a stomach bug and took turns hitting each of us...prolonged in me for some reason. Mckenzee made me very proud during the time I came down with the bug though. She made sure I always had something to drink, that I had my ice pack or blanket if I needed and took care of her little brother and cleaned up with no muss and fuss which is very much unlike the typical "whine and moan" when asked to help out. She was awesome, even down to tucking in her brother and reading to him and then tucking me in too! 

Painted up for Dr. Seuss Day at School

She has also made me proud by cleaning up her room, doing her homework as soon as she gets home AND working on her Girl Scout Journey book as well. There has been no fighting to get the chores done when I ask and she has even kept the cry baby Kenzee to a minimum. 

Working with Daddy to build at her Dr. Seuss Family night.

She had her second dance class this week and loves it! 
She is really starting to blossom out here, between her new out look being learned at Girl Scouts and her need to be praised as much as possible, she has really pushed herself to do some great things and I could not be prouder. Next week is conferences at her school and I hope things are as great there as I think they are because I know she flies through her homework and always has it right! 

Now on to my awesome little boy! He is astonishing me day in and day out. He has an amazing vocabulary and lately it is rare that I do NOT understand him. He talks so much now and has learned to color, some of his shapes, some of his letters, and even some of his object words! 
Here is an updated list of what he has been able to say this month: 

Hello Mama/Daddy
Sit down on you butt! (yes he has heard that just a few times)
Help me!
Owie Owie (when he hurts himself)
Snack
Love you Mama/Daddy
Night night Mama/Daddy
Kenzee (he loves his big sister) 
Kisses (he usually says this if he need a boo boo kissed)
Mo-Mo (that is an Eskimo kiss with his nose) <----one of my favorites! 

Plus:
Red, blue, green, yellow, purple, circle, square, star, up, down, A, M, D, S, as well as shirt, socks, pants, shoes! 

He makes me smile, even when I want to pull out my hair because he also inherited my stubbornness and charm!

We have also really started getting Spencer into books as Mckenzee is moving up in her reading levels she has also been reading to him! I love them so much they make me so proud! 

Thank you all for reading!

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